My mantra for life:)

Life is short, break the rules, forgive
quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile. Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off
the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover...


Beautiful quote...

Songs that always make me cry...

1. Jhoka Hawa Ka
2. Alvida
3. Layi Vi Na Gayee
4. Paayaliya
5. U, Me Aur Hum
6. Ek Shaqs ( Abhijeet Sawant)
7. Bolo Na
8. Mathura Nagarpati
9. Maa
10. Lukka chhupi

Thoughts of the Day...

1. A Christmas well-spent with the morning starting off with lovely carols, and then going on to tea with cakes, decorations, Santa costume, photo-sessions, adda, cosy nap, dressing up, awesome food, and winding up with another round of snapshots!!
2. Am loving my curls!!
3. Almost have a crush on Palash Sen :) Does he compose the music and pen down the lyrics for Euphoria?
4. Looking forward to Tuesday:)

Nameless thoughts...

Twas you, some day...not long ago...
Who planted tender seeds of wishes in my heart...
Nurtured them with love and care...
And then, I don't know how...
They were ripped off me, and beaten to dust...
Wishes will come true, they say, and wistfully I wait till eternity...

Once upon a time, when I wandered away with you...
Treading on unchartered territories...
Never doubtful, never skeptical, coz you held my hands...
The tryst with myself that happened for you...
Its memory still lingers on...
Today, we thrive on its ashes, knowing that perhaps it will never resurrect...

Today, we call each other friends, friends...are we??
With so many distances, so many unanswered questions,
The estrangement that we bore so well, but could never get over...
Comes back to me, in fits and starts...
And often attempts to strip me off my mask...
 I ask myself in vain...when will the thaw come...

My eyes are an ocean in which my dreams are reflected...

The latest theme song of my life...

Somewhere Out There, I Know There Is Someone
Who Is Waiting Just For Me Maahiya
He Is Gonaa Set Me Free Maahiya

Jiski Aankhon Mein Meri Hi Nami Ho
Koyi Toh Hai Woh Yaar Maahiya
Karoon Main Intzaar Maahiya
Jiske Jine Mein Meri Hi Kami Ho
Rahe Jo Bekaraar Maahiya
Woh Mujhpe Nisaar Maahiya
Jiski Har Baat Mujhse Judi Ho
Chaahe Jo Beshumaar Maahiya
Wafa Se Wafaadaar Maahiya

How Long My Heart Keeps Craving of Fantasy,
Why Can You Be A Part Of My Reality

Usko Li Zindagi Ke Khwaab Main Bunoo
Chamkile Rang Saare Unamein Bharu
Jisko Aksar Khayaalo Mein Socha
Kahin Toh Hai Woh Yaar Maahiya
Woh Mera Dildaar Maahiya
Somewhere Out There, I Know There Is Someone
Who Is Waiting Just For Me Maahiya
He Is Gonna Set Me Free Maahiya

I Know That He Is Gonna Be My Destiny
Its All Part Of Cupid's conspiracy
Kabse Uske Aane Ki Main Raah Takoon
Kabse Chhupa Ke Ise Dil Mein Rakhoon
Mere Dil Ne Taraasha Use Jaisa
Milega Wahi Yaar Maahiya
Hai Mujhe Aitbaar Maahiya
Somewhere Out There, I Know There Is Someone
Who Is Waiting Just For Me Maahiya
He Is Gonaa Set Me Free Maahiya
Jiski Aankhon Mein Meri Hi Nami Ho
Koyi Toh Hai Woh Yaar Maahiya
Karoon Main Intzaar Maahiya
Jiske Jine Mein Meri Hi Kami Ho
Rahe Jo Bekaraar Maahiya
Woh Mujhpe Nisaar Maahiya
Jiski Har Baat Mujhse Judi Ho
Chaahe Jo Beshumaar Maahiya
Wafa Se Wafaadaar Maahiya...

College fete is here again!! Same day last year things were soooo different...has it all changed for the better??

When two people in love break up...
They can't be friends as they have hurt each other,
They can't be enemies as once they loved each other,
The only thing that they can be are 'most familiar strangers'...
True...or is it??

Presently, pissed off at the base wannabe's who humiliate the beautiful art of poetry...why does everyone aspire to be a poet these days????? At this rate, the world will soon be Eliot's 'Wasteland'!! Grow up!! :-X

Had a super-duper morning today...light drizzle, long walk with myself from Maidan to Park Street, across my favourite part of the city, basking in Mitwaa rendition :) the gaiety, the sense of freedom, the heightened pleasure can't be described in words!! I love my city in winters :)

Freud's dream interpretation, fantastic little gems by O Henry and Anton Chekhov, steamed Chicken Momos and Hrishikesh Mukherjee's Khoobsurat...:) can a drizzling winter evening get better than this??

Thought of the Day...yet again...can't help writing this...

Today's a perfect day to snuggle, hug and cuddle...wintry winds blowing with their tender yet biting might...that fuel my dormant desires...Salt Lake is awesomely awesome for romantic walks...and a day like this, chilling cold and drizzling skies make it ever so wonderful...Oh, wish I had my Mr. Perfect to hold hands with...

Thought of the Day...

After posting 5 of my favourite romantic videos, I'm going to blog any random thought that strikes my mind and touches my heart on any particular day...
So, here's my food for thought for today-

Saawariya means "beloved". But he's not just any beloved. He's the dusky, blue tinged (Savla) God Krishna who is adored as Saawariya. On a more sublime note, Saawariya is the beloved who is always in love. But not every lover can qualify as Saawariya. Only the lover who stands the test of time who overcomes all obstacles who doesn't care whether he gets the girl or not as long as he's consumed by love as long as he remains in a perpetual state of "being in love"

That man, that rare lover, is Saawariya.

This is probably my best-loved word in Hindi, and I chanced to come across this meaning online...it really caught my fancy...

The little road that leads up to my doorstep lies numb today…

The frostbitten morning, misty-eyed, grey-faced, stares at me…

I breath out white vapours that blunts my words…

The bubbles that are home to my mind’s eye, fly about…

I hold myself in embrace, my arms closely wrapped around me

In a vain attempt to recreate the warmth that you were…

Laying my heavy feet on the wet paths, I trip along…

The drizzle tastes like lozenge, indeed…

It snowed all night, or did it?? They’ve put out the stellar lamps…

One or two are still aglow, with their faint twinkles…

I look above, trying to trace some alien galaxy…

The sky isn’t as speckled tonight,

Rusted yesterdays appear dimmer in the soft moonlight,

But I still rummage my glassy orb of recollections…

Hoping to stumble upon that moment, when I nestled in your arms…

That snugness has long been obliterated…

And I still trail after the hollow bubbles….

Zara Zara - Rehnaa Hai Terre Dil Mein

Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi- Tujhe Mein Rab Dikhta Hai

AYE UDI UDI ~SAATHIYA ~ HD VERSION ~

Darr - Tu Mere Samne

Yeh Hum Aa Gaye Hain Kahan - Veer Zaara - Full HD 1080p

Lying here in Hope

One more day peeps in through my skylight,

I greet it with a disarming smile,

Before it fizzles out, I shall grab a handful,

Am sure, it’ll last me a good while...

I spread my palm, and have a glance,

At the unrequited tears, and feigned laughter,

I seek retreat, or do I?

For these bittersweet moments I once ran after...

The snow-laden paths shall thaw someday,

But this cold has gripped me hard,

A stupor has spread all over me,

It must have caught me off-guard...

 My cloistered world wants sunshine,

But how shall I ever conquer the wintry pall,

I’ve grown weary of this yearning,

But I shall not droop, or fall...

The road will turn somewhere ahead,

It sets ablaze my hopes to conquer,

 And then, I shall find repose,

This thirst will not last longer...

Random…

It’s you, the  damp, cold winter again...

Igniting  my icy musings with your scarlet fire,

Some simmering, some hovering  about my eyes,

Some burnt down in your infernal pyre...

You bring along a carnival of memories, half-faded,

Conjure some magic that takes me back to old times,

What sorcerer art thou?  What wizardry is it?

All the bygone years, come rushing down on me....

I hear ‘em, I touch, I smell, but cannot see...

Looking Back...

Twas not much long ago, to me it seems just yesterday...

When you and I sailed together, on the frothy waves of smiles,

Your eyes that stole glances, and strew roses on my way,

With youthful passion and an undying faith, we walked the difficult miles...

Twas not long ago, we spread our wings to the evening sky,

Bathed in the sunset, drenched in the bluish dye of night...

Defying the callous world’s ‘how’, ‘when’ and ‘why’,

We tasted heaven to our heart’s delight!!

Your resounding smiles still deafen my ears amidst the maddening crowd...

I feel one with you, your soul transpiring into me all over again...

They say you are not around, but in some distant land,

Tell me, is there any corner of the world where my love won’t find you?

They say you remember me not, and I laugh it away,

Somewhere in the forgotten niche of your memory, I reside...  

You can’t wipe me out, you can’t shake me off,

I have a part of you with me, with which I endeavour

Day after day, to rebuild our little cosmos, replete with the little joys...

I walk amidst millions, but I’m all saturated by you,

Oh! The familiar lilting of voice that I still feel on my pillow,

It is the soporific symphony that lulls me to sleep,

For, if you cease to invade my dreams, or refuse to break into my dreams,

I shall never open my eyes to the morning beams...

Glances at my dream-

I dream…

             To build a home in the rainbow,

             To hear the whispers of the wind,

             To touch shadows and hold on to them…

           

I dream…

            To make bangles with the hues of twilight’s afterglow,

             To steal the purplish haze of midnight moon and bathe my eyes in it,

             To be the dry rose in a lover’s diary, brittle but never dead…

I dream…

             To make a dainty little gown of pretty flower petals-

             Give me the freshest blossoms- daisies, lilies, tulips and buttercups…

             To walk on frothy waves and embrace the skies,

             To have wings as light and silken as a bride’s veil,

             To gather the raindrops of the first monsoon shower,

              And wreathe them all in to a necklace…

I dream to grab with full hands, the sound of your laughter,

And sweeten my life with its resonance…

I dream to be reborn in your heart each day, grow anew in your eyes

And die on your lips, the pleasantest death of all…

You…within me, without me…

Feeling blue,

Isn’t my sort of thing,

But me is you,

And I’m alone here tonight…

You fill me to the core,

Yet, one blink, and you are gone,

I cling on to your last reminisces,

Inhaling them, till the break of dawn…

I smile, I celebrate, I go on living,

But oft, an oblivious sigh escapes,

My frail heart betrays me,

With tears and frays, it silently gapes.

Rid me of this incomplete being,

I yearn to feel whole again,

I seek you in stranger stirrings,

Walking down the memory lane…

I know now where you are,

Which corner of the globe is it??

What air do you breathe?

Am I alien to it?

Tomorrow awaits me, yet I flee,

For fear of not finding you there,

The road that lies ahead, stares and laughs at me,

I know not, do you love? Do you care?

Yet to me, this pain is pleasure,

The tears are savory when I taste,

There! I see my dreams kissing the dust,

And my sleepless nights crying in waste…

I shall live and die each day,

To see my Utopia beaten to ashes,

I do not seek retreat, for this is my refuge,

That with each passing day, stab my gashes…

My first attempt at stream-of-consciousness...err...i dunno what I should call it...

Smile. I love to smile. smile makes this world beautiful. 14 muscles. shouvik basu complimented my smile y'day. smile. evergreen. i smile in the smallest of things. people say i've a killing smile.smile. indeed so pretty. i love your smile. the dimples on your cheek. i loved them then. i love them now. the way your eyes got closed whenever you smiled a full smile. and it gave me immense fulfillment. your silly  pranks, crazy antics. leg-pulling. the names you gave me. dhor. nautanki. hehe. even the very memories make me smile. i love you. smile. what a wonderful thing. i cried yesterday after such  a long time. hope to smile today. shall i? off, am i losing the subconscious part of it? no, but i shall keep it spontaneous. kya karu, i can't type as fast as the thoughts are racing in my mind, i wrote this yday. it got deleted. god, this is fun. sir is simply awesome. m going to write on more. rly got an addiction of this. explained to ma-babi, but did they rly get its essence..ma. understands me. my pain. but i'll never stop smiling. smile. it's fabulous. positive vibes. do u still smile the same way?? i can;t see you smiling now, but in my heart, i can always picture you smiling the same way as you used to.one look, n my time seemed to come to a standstill. bike rides. i miss them. i miss you. miss smile. ok, now enough. can go on like this forever. but gotta stop. will return back to it soon........

That's my way...:-) figure it out if you can!!

1.If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?

Agrawal :P

 2. Were you happy when you woke up today?

I’d like to believe I was…

3. What’s something that can always make you feel better? When did you need it last?

My ‘dil ki awaaz’…I need it every moment for survival…it’s my better half :-)

4. What are you excited for?

My next shopping spree!!

5. What were you doing yesterday?

Living life to the hilt :-)

6. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?

 Water :P If you want me to name a solid, then it's Maggie Noodles :-D

7. Have a best friend(s)?

 My diary…I can confide in it the most….& it never dons a mask…

8. Are you scared to fall in love?

I haven’t figured that out yet…it’s somewhere in the midway…

9. Do you think teenagers can be in love?

  I’d prefer to believe in the affirmative…btw, how do u define ‘being in love’??

10. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?

Naam lungi to badnaam ho jayegi :P

11.What do you want right now?

  Love, as always <3

12. Who was the last person you took a picture with?

  Myself!! :P……………OK, if I have to mention a person, then I guess it’ll be my bro :-)

13. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?

   Am a bit of all four…honestly!!

14. When was the last time you cried?

   Crying may not always be visible…often, we simply cry within ourselves…I guess I did that just yesterday…

15. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

 Yesssssss :-)

16. Do you find it hard to trust others?

 Depends on who that ‘others’ is…

17. I bet you miss somebody right now..

 Of course, but I won’t name that ‘somebody’….

18. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?

  Yeah. Okay is an easy state to be in, coz it’s abstract and vague…what’s ‘okay’????

19. Tell me what's on your mind.

Why would I tell you??? :P

20. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?

for the next three days?

  A holiday trip, 7th feb, bro's 'sacred thread ceremony'…lots of fun!!

  More smiles to caress my lips :-)

21. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?

   Yesssss!! My bro’s cooooool, funky tees :-D

22. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?

      Yesterday.

23. How's your heart?

 A lil sugar, a lil spice, n everything nice…but those who dare mess with me, think twice!!

24. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?

     Yes!! But mostly for people who aren’t important to me as well :P But when that’s not the case, it hurts…

25. Do you think somebody's in love with you?

     Maybe. Maybe not. 

26. What are you planning on doing after this?

      Ponder…and pen down my thoughts…

27. Who do you not get along with?

    I don’t even try in such cases…I stay with only those who I get along very well with…

 29. Are you wasting your time on the person you like?

    No way…

30. How did you feel when you woke up?

      Optimistic.

31. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?

     Yessss…but how would that ‘wish’ make a difference to reality??

32. Do you crack your knuckles?

      Nooooo…I hate it!!

33. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?

      Does midnight mean 12am?? I was watching Hrishikesh Mukherjee’s ‘Parichay’ then :-D

34. Who's the first B in your contacts?

  

 Babi…that’s my Dad :P

35. When was the last time you laughed really hard?

  Yesterday…I do it everyday!!

36. Last awkward moment?

    Well, this is a lil private ;-)

37. Are you afraid of the dark?

 Not of the darkness without, but the dark within…

 38. Do you have good vision?

I think so…both physically and metaphysically…

39. Have you ever tripped someone?

   Must have!

40. Have you ever slapped someone?

 Yup, my bro has been my only victim so far :P

41. Do you laugh off embarrassing moments?

  

Almost always…it’s good for our own health…:p

42. Can you go out in public looking like you do right now?

  Errr…I guess not…;-)

43. Is it easy for someone to make you smile?

Yes…:-) quite easy, I guess…I love to smile at the slightest pretext :-)

44. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?

 Yes.....my mum <3

45. Do you miss the way things used to be?

 In many ways, but that doesn’t help the way things are right now…

46 How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?

Depends on who’s at the other end…

47. Want someone back in your life?

    

I don’t quite know...it’s now as simple as that…

48. Will tomorrow be better than today?

In certain ways, yes…

49.Does it bother you when someone lies to you?

 If I consider that ‘someone’ as dear, yes…otherwise, I don’t give a damn!! 

50. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?

Yes, I think so.

51. Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?

 Am most undoubtedly a naturally happy person :-D none of my emotions are ever forced…I like to keep things real…

52. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?

Shahid Kapoor :P



Wait...

O, the long-awaited December morn, come kiss my eyelids…

Waken me up with your silken touch…

The night has been long, the constellations winked at me,

Crumbling my little delusions into morsels…

But your sweet sunshine shall drive away all fears…

Oh, the lukewarm dew-drops that mutters away strange somethings,

I feel tipsy, what wine is it that fills me to the brim?

I rub my palms, and an unseen warmth seeps into my icy soul,

Christmas in not far…I await the lights, the bells, the holly leaves,

The carnival of celebrations colour my innocent fancies,

Morphine-like, you intoxicate my senses,

I taste untold delight, with not a care in the world,

I haven’t outgrown the red stockings, and the wait isn’t over…

The wakeful December nights and my sleepless eyes still weave dreams,

Of sweet wishes and fantasies heaped up by my bedside,

Eclipsing the bygone days, and ushering in a new tomorrow…

Tears...

Tears…pearls of molten grief that blister my skin…

Kissing the lemony grass beneath my bare feet…

My eyes burn…

Is it the thick cloud of smoke that pierces them??

I see contours of shadows come and go…

They laugh at my tears…

But I don’t utter a sigh…

Colorless emotions in crystal-like drops,

They molest my solitude…

Come peeping through my curtains,

And rip me apart…

But I let out no cry, nor ask no question,

The sharp twinge of pain is buried down…

For when the world abandons, I find my safe haven in them…

Moments...

Moments, still and deep…

I see reflections streaming before me,

Of rueful smiles and sanguine tears,

Those resonate within me…

Moments of countless yesterdays and even before,

That fade not in the fullness of time…

Like snowflakes, they pour upon me,

And paint rainbows on my canvas…

Seamless and unbounded,

What do they know of my confines??

Moments of some untold promises,

Few broken, few realized…

Last but one...

November, thou art magical…

The chill in the air carries your scent…

Gone are the sweet mornings beaming with light,

You wear a somber look, clad in grey raiment…

I inhale you deeply…it fills up my lungs,

My eyes, my lips, my life…

I am brimming over with your potion,

Just a few drops have wound up a charm…

November, thy misty countenance eludes me,

Thy wintry breezes make me shiver…

The long nights mock my insomniac eyes,

Fuming vapors from my coffee mug, and my lips quiver,

The songs of summer, of sunshine days,

I’ve burnt down in the fireplace…

In the folds and creases of my quilt,

I nurture my vernal fancies…

How blanched now looks nature’s rosy face,

With the blanket of thy haze marring her grace…

My saccharine dreams have gone away-

With the nostalgia of the autumn evenings…

The clouds come floating along my balcony,

Perched on thy gossamer wings…
Tiptoeing, you peer through my blinds,

I tread on your dew-trodden paths,

And…

Some frozen memories are warmed back to life…